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Svetlana de Rohan-Levashova. Revelation

attempt.

Suddenly, grandmother and my room disappeared, and I found myself in exactly
the same place and time I left several days ago, as if I had just left it right now! The
squeaking Stella threw herself to me:
– Well, really! I thought you had disappeared! And you are here!! Very well then;
please, continue, Isidora!

Stella always was herself, even when sad and incomprehensible things happened.
And I dearly loved her for that.
Isidora smiled and quietly continued her story...
Still being unable to leave the room, I spent the days in complete tranquility.
Caraffa did not appear for some reason. I thought that he could not decide what to do
next. It fully suited me, because it gave me an opportunity to recover forces which I
needed for the struggle against him.

I felt very strange most of the time... There was no pain, or rather there was
nothing. As if somebody pitied me and put all feelings into a pitch-dark room and tightly
closed the door and I could not open it. It was the right thing to do. It was much easier
for me. It gave me a spark of hope to stand to the end and wreak vengeance on my
enemy.
I wanted so much to see Sever, but he also did not come for some reason. I missed
his wonderful stories and the lack of his warm support made me sad. He became my
real friend, and I had almost no friends left. The world that surrounded me was
intimidating and cold without any faint resemblance of humaneness.

At last, one fine sunny day Sever appeared. He seemed different in some way. I
just could not catch in what. Harsh and at the same time sad, he attentively scrutinized
my face long enough, as if looking for confirmation that I lived... that I will LIVE …
for the time being...
– Hello, Sever! I am very glad you came.
– Peace to your Soul, Isidora. Have you succeeded in withstanding, my friend?
Forgive me for all your pain. I was unable to help you.

– I think I have, Sever. Caraffa cannot frighten me anymore. He has nothing left
that could break me. And that is why I am stronger than he. Now I will fight him until
I destroy him.
– Are you sure, my friend, that your heart will not let your down? You became so
calm and remote! – Sever continued to peer into my face, as if he tried to understand
whether my soul was still alive.

– Don’t worry, Sever. I have enough strength to live while Caraffa lives. But I
don’t want to talk about him today! Tell me, my friend, can you give me the next present
today? Can you tell me about Vidomir? Do you remember you promised me that?
He again looked at me attentively, but on seeing just a sincere request, nodded
with relief. I knew that my calmness surprised him just as much as it surprised me... as
if I became a stone on which I wrote my story now.
– What would you like to know about him, Isidora? – Sever tenderly asked.

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